It will be three years on March 14 that I lost my beautiful baby girl kitty-cat Soenie. She was 14 years old and had been a part of more than half of my life. This loss was something that I was not prepared for. I remember the last month of her life as though it has just past. I took her to the Veterinarian on Valentine's Day 2008 and he told me that she had a bad heart. As it turns out that was just the beginning, the beginning of the end for my beautiful baby girl. It was the first of many trips between Feb. 14, 2008 and Mar. 14, 2008. Her heart was just the first of many things to come. What is hard to remember for me is all of the things that were going wrong in her small body. She had always been a very healthy kitty-cat. Weighing almost 14 lbs. she was my little bundle of joy. In that last month she had dropped down to 6 lbs. It was heartbreaking going through this experience but I am sharing it with you all because at the time I could not share it with anyone. I kept wanted to wake up from this nightmare but it was "real" life and I felt helpless. I remember our last day together.
It was a Friday and I didn't go to work or leave the house at all. I spent the day holding my baby. We were outside basking in the sun for a while, something she loved to do! She had one pink paw and three brown/black ones. I have many pictures but one in particular that I have on my nightstand is from our last day together and I just love being able to "see" her everyday. When I was finally able to talk to people about what happened they just brushed it off by saying "Oh it's just a cat" but Soenie was not "just a cat" she was my baby, my best friend, my first hug when I got home, my purring kiss, my playful kitty, and much much more. I am glad that I was strong enough to let her go because part of me wanted to be selfish and keep her here with me but I knew I had to do what was best for my baby and so I said goodbye with her in my arms! I dream of the day when I get to see her again, in fact, I dream of her and it feels so real like I just saw her, held her, and got to kiss her on the top of her head as I did often when she was here with me. She was a big part of my life and I love and miss her dearly. I hope that you all get to have a loved one as special as Soenie was to me :) We have what seems to be an endless amount of memories that cross my mind everyday! Until next time... Imagine me without you!!
Aw, what a sweet story. It makes me miss my kitty. :( It is never to lose a loved one, no matter if it is a human, a loved one, or a time lost. I am glad that you are able to reflect on this loss personally and even creatively through this blog space. I am enjoying learning a bit more about everybody through their posts and this post definitely expresses a lot about you. I think that your description: "she as my baby, my best friends, my first hug when I got home, my purring kiss, my playful kitty, and much much more" really describes the importance of this relationship.
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